2 days later

i'm not sure how often people even check this but whatever.
it seems everytime i remm my blog, 2 days pass.
it's like an every-other-day thing as to your normal everyday thing.
ok waffling away now, stopit.

yesterday went unexpectedly well.
i'm yearning to seek God everyday.

seek
v. sought, (sôt) seek·ing, seeks
v. tr.
To try to locate or discover; search for.
To endeavor to obtain or reach: seek a college education.
To go to or toward: Water seeks its own level.
To inquire for; request: seek directions from a police officer.
To try; endeavor: seek to do good.

dwelling in Him, His presence is what i'd do if the whole world weren't constantly on my back to do this and do that.
as God's been dealing with a few issues in me recently, it took it all on board and saw it as my responsibility to change.
again, i relied on my own strength to do what i can't without Him.
so i got overwhelmed and enervated.

sometimes being on the other side of the fence puts your side of the fence in perspective.
last night, i did the Jesus thing.
hung out with "the lost"
it was amazing to see how much deception the devil had done already.
to speak to people, find out what they think and how blinded they've been by the enemy's lies was pretty despairing.
my faith clearly being challenged by the devil as well.
if only i could do something about it, i mean, literally.
but of course the only One who can change hearts is God.
meantime, i know that only His love will melt their hearts.
and that is what i'm supposed to do for now.

later in the night, we trekked high and low in search of Club Fandango.
walked right pass the street we were meant to go down, so went one big round...yada yada
you clearly understand what it means to be lost.
finally, at the near end of Elliot Road, with darkness at the end (i'm not kiddin)
there it was in a converted house basement.
the music was absolutely sweet.
i could have danced all night with the unstoppable funk/soul beats.
i'm not good with genres so i must be wrong.

so by the time we headed home, i was completely shattered.
and my heart was down after the reality of people's beguilement by satan.
a wanted to talk to God but He told me to go rest first, and we'll chat in the morning.
(familiar huh?)
and that's just what i did.

re-charging still in progress.
68% complete