the clanging of metal instruments...
onto another metal plate...
2 circular lights beaming down on you...
and a male and female head...
peeking into the light beam...
looking at you like a baby...
just that you're not one...
and that they don't have cute smiles on their faces...
the "whirrr" of some sort...

you've guessed it...i went to da dentist this morn...
it wasn't scary...cus i know it's good for me...
but i got a filling...
i know i'm only 17...
but hey!
at least it's better dan getting a toothache right?
so now i haf shiny teeth!
[extract from Darley ad: HaHaLalallalallalall]
okay...dat wasn't a very good example...
oh well...

i think you can tell i'm kinda in a better mood now right?
because why?
Mommy knows best! and Mommy can do anything!
after telling my mom exactly how i felt about everything...
i was afriad she would give me sum of her good advice...
in a stern voice...
but thank God she wasn't in one of those moods...
and she jsut listened and gave comfort!
just wat i needed...

so after sheding many more tears than yesterday...
and getting a bit of puffy eyes...
after this FUNNYYYY jap show on TV...
i was fine!
i even did my QT this morning...

so i'm improving!!!
except in my driving!...
actually...i am...but i'm still not good enuff...
today i only got 5 minor errors...
yu need less than 15 to pass...
but thanks to some old man!
in the wrong lane on a roundabout...
i "cut" in front of him...cus i was trying to get to my CORRECT lane!
*sigh* i pray that no one like dat is on da roads when i'm doing my test...
if not i'll be real "smokey-in-the-ears"

using alternative language to express my anger...
instead of swearing..
it's no good...

come to think about it...
i'm not sure if i'm being too optimistic...
but when i've used this machine at the gym to measure fat content...
my % has gone doen gradually...
from 26% to 25.6% to 24.7%
okay...it's not HUGE differences...
but i'm still happy!
at least i'm in da normal range...
*phew*

then yesterday...i was studying my physics in da library...
and i was starting to get sick of it...
then this girl from china who says hi to me...
we start talking...and i guess i've gotten a bit closer to her...
but we're Kinda frens...not there yet obviously...
but at least i had someone to tok to...
make me smile...
as we tokked about boyfrens...well...
her Ex
and she even told me dat the guy in my maths
who gave me lotsa prezzies last time
to say he loves me...
is really crazy about me!
*haiz*
what's rong wif him!
can't he see properly...
sigh...let him be lar...
got sebast good enuff...

speaking of sebast...
i dreamt of him again last...
but sumhow it wasn't a very nice dream...
cus i was at this gathering...
and everyone was like a bit crazy...
i tink it was da booze...
cus there were adults there too...
and like...
it's really horrible and i know sebast isn't horrible...
but i remember him pinching my waist...
and he said "just like a grandmother like dat"
obviously referring to my "unwanted STUFF"

and i was like "huh?"
why did i dream such a thing...
so i dunno...
i think it was just a carry-forward
of my thoughts earlier that night...
oh well..i know it means nothing...
cus God has blessed me wif da best boyfren i could ever ask for...

thank you God for not leaving me even though i left You...
i'm sorry...Amen